| B-week Forums, Anxiety, and Stress |
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| Friday, 02 March 2007 07:14 | |
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Is it the stress and anxiety that is causing me to check the B-week forums regularly for some sign of something or is it the B-week forums that is causing the anxiety and stress? The chicken or the egg? Is there much more I could really say about how this waiting is KILLING me? I think I"ve said it all before. The silence from all my schools is driving me wacky. Yesterday I had such a crappy day and it was gloomy outside and that didn"t help anything. At least I was able to take out some of my frustration on the trail. I took almost a two hour lunch to do some sprints and then finished up with a quick 5 mile run. I felt pretty good afterwards. But that running high was short lived when I came back to work and found an unpleasant email from a coworker. I won"t get in to details but I just wasn"t in the mood to deal with her nonsense and I almost turned into one of those emotional girls and started crying but instead I turned into one of those bitchy girls and took it out on my poor best friend who had to listen to me whine about everything and anything for a good 20 minutes via phone. I don"t feel all that bad though because I"m pretty sure he just had his phone on speaker while he was working and just mumbled some agreeable noises every once in a while. Lucky for him that"s all I wanted :-) Today there is Friday and there is sun and I got some good sleep last night and I"m sore from my run yesterday (I love being sore, yes I realize I"m weird) so I"m feeling pretty good. But what would make me feel even better is a damn acceptance to somewhere! This weekend I will not log on to my computer and I will try my hardest to just enjoy the weekend and not stress. My friend and I started an intro to yoga series on Sunday mornings. I am so not into the feel good stuff of centering yourself and all that nonsense. I like high energy workouts but maybe this breathing crap and stretching will help with all the stress and anxiety? Although I think I just need a few nights of salsa dancing to do that...now if I could only find the time! Have a great weekend everyone! |


